Oh College!

today i remember just how easily life distracts me. senior year was a mess and full of distractions. i was constantly thinking about my issues or worrying about friends, but i didn't realize how much it distracted me because school was basically a joke. i never felt the need to concentrate on school work so i didn't realize when i was distracted by it. well now i am in college, and surprise i need to concentrate. sadly, i am finding it rather impossible. i had noticed it the past few weeks but especially so today. i am attempting to study for a test that i didn't even know we had and i cant seem to comprehend anything the book says because i am so distracted. life has certainly gotten to me since i have been here. kobal put it as "the devil has had a field day with you." it is true sadly. i have let every obstacle thrown my direction win. and today is one of those days. life, and its problems, are always going to be here, so i need to learn how to deal with them and manage my school work at the same time. it should be an interesting lesson for me to learn. wish me luck! :)

i decided it was going to be a brilliant idea for me to plan out my next 5 and a half years of school... wrong! i did it and very quickly realized it is impossible for me to minor. its disappointing but its not a huge deal, i kinda expected it. once i mapped out my next 3 and a half years here at OBU for nursing school i moved on to graduate school. i couldn't do much there because i have yet to look too much into it, and where i go get my masters will probably depend on where i get a job and will be living when i graduate here. most hospitals these days pay for nurses to go back to school. so then i looked back over my classes at OBU. i almost cried. i have to take 18 hours next semester (and 2 labs). these are tough classes too: Chemistry, Anatomy, College Algebra, Spanish, an activity class and English. i was in total freak out mode then i called my dad. surprisingly he was the most comforting of all people to talk to. i decided to take J-term this year. it means my Christmas break is cut short and i only have about 4 days in Houston, but then i will only have 15 hours next semester! it sucks sure, but its the best possible scenario for my mental health ;)! haha.

in all of this i actually felt like myself for the first time in a long time. i was a wreck and completely freaking out and stressed and sick from it... but thats me! it was normal. oh college. ha. as bad as i stressed, i am glad i did this planning! ha. i am somewhat questioning what i got myself into in regards to being a nursing major, but i am just praying God sees me through.

please pray for me if you can :)