Am I a loser?

Oh what a day it has been. I am unsure how I feel about this blogging thing anymore. But I am not giving up just yet. Here are some events that unfolded today, nothing significant, but here I go nonetheless. 

1. Woke up and planned on going to chapel, then I remembered I needed to shower. Therefore, no chapel

2. Went to spanish and took a test. Last night I helped my roommate study for the test but I decided that was enough for me and I would just wing it. I think I did alright. Ha

3. Sat outside and called Kobal to wish him a happy birthday.

4. Checked my mail and got the most awesome "save the date" ever. (This was the highlight of my day by far!)

5. Skipped lunch. I am not sure why, but instead of walking to the ARA to eat I ended up in my room. At that point I was not leaving. I chilled before psychology.

6. Went to psychology. I actually enjoyed it. Although I am dreading Sunday because I will be consumed with studying, I felt better than I have about a test. Our professor emphasized the importance of doing the online quizzes many times in a way that said a lot without saying a lot. And I was that kid that answered all the questions and everyone hates. Oops. 

7. Came to my room and watched GH. This is a close second for highlight of my day. I have not watched it in two weeks.

8. Kobal called me back! Pretty much was AWESOME. I love talking to him. I can't wait until January. I miss home. Home sweet home. :)

9. I have been sitting in my room since 2 this afternoon. I originally planned on working on the massive amount of homework I have, but I decided to try and relax. Good decision, for now...

10. Currently: I am the loser sitting in my room on Friday night, and I like it! Ha. I am watching what not to wear and my stomach pain is in full force. :/

Tonight should be incredibly boring, but considering I have been going nonstop the past week, and will continue that way for the next two, I am thoroughly satisfied with my lame night. And I am expecting another phone call later, which will inevitably bring me much happiness. All of this begs the question... am I a loser?? Haha.

What a life

I guess ill start with updates on my health issues. I just got a call from my nurse at the doctor office. My ultrasound came back normal so i am supposed to get a call tomorrow to schedule my HIDA scan. That should be about a 2 hour long test so i will be missing some class. My dad is still pretty angry about the whole situation but what else is new. He did tell me that if i need surgery he is flying me to Boston to have it done. Seems extreme, but his reasons are understandable and i would get great care. Of course, he is getting way ahead of himself. We have to find out if indeed it is my gallbladder. I got horribly sick sunday night. Some of the worst pain yet. And since then i have not been able to eat and im nauseous all the time. Not to mention exhausted. Hmmm could be worse though. I am trying hard to not complain. But if i am being honest i am really frustrated and i just want to know what wrong with me.

In other news I am almost recovered from the best weekend ever. In saying almost i mean that my nose is still a bit sore from where i got it pierced. :) nothing major though. I miss Danica and Danielle a lot, but it was so wonderful seeing them. So many memorable moments. Danielle posted on her blog about learning a new phrase from my "Christian" friends. ha. She can't judge because she loved the phrase. Although i still hear it often, it is even funnier when her or Danica says it. ha. I had some awesome chick-fil-a. We got to just relax and be normal. I missed that more than i expected to. It was so easy to just be around them. They went to church with me Sunday, and although the worship was slightly different than normal, it was still really good. I am glad they approved. We took a pretty long trip down memory lane, reliving as much of summer as we could while sitting at Wendys. Good stuff. Then they left and i had to get back to reality.

Reality is that i am sick and very tired. Being sick is very inconvenient i find, but this could be a long process, i better suck it up. Being tired is also something i am just going to have to accept. I don't see it changing anytime soon. Even when i have nothing standing in my way i am still up to 2 or 3 in the morning. Ew. Reality is a lot of work, something i am struggling to find motivation for. Reality is i still don't feel like i belong. My friends are cool, but for the past week i felt very much like an outsider, like a charity case if you will. Today was better so who knows, it could all be in my head.

This weekend is approaching, but not quickly enough. I am ready to see allison. It is about time. I am still pretty amazed this is happening at all. I can't believe her parents agreed to let her fly up here. I can't believe James is so willing to pick her up from the airport. It is all so crazy. It's going to be such an awesome weekend. And I for one really need it. I can't wait. Plus everyone up here is excited to meet her. It is going to be wonderful. 

It is freezing here. Sure 53 degrees is not technically freezing, but that along with the wind and rain makes for one chilly day. I absolutely love it though. Of course, we have our 2nd play off game tonight at 9, so I may hate the weather by tonight, but as of now it rocks.