Thanksgiving Reflections

So, a few of you know the horrors I suffered today at the airport in my journey back to Oklahoma. To be honest, it took all I had to not break down and cry in the airport. This was an emotional week for in general, but today seemed even more so. I was not ready to say goodbye to my dear friends or my precious grandparents... then all the stress of my day at the airport and my utter exhaustion made it all the worse. While on one of my 3 flights today, I just started praying and asking God for peace. I was so upset and so negative about my situation, which frankly, I had a right to be... it was a pretty lame one. BUT I didn't want to let it get me down, and I knew I didn't have it in me to find any good in this situation, so, while on my final flight I pulled out my bible and journal. I read through various things, then I started journaling. I decided to make a list (of course) of the things that stood out to this break (spiritually speaking). I wanted to put my focus on all the amazing work God has done in my life this past week, rather than the not so good stuff that happened today, so I made a list. This may not make any sense to anyone else other than me, but I just wanted to share where my thoughts are and what God has been doing in my heart. This week truly was incredible. Much of this list stems from Tuesday night, but God totally took it from there. So, I wanted to share, even though there is no flow to this. I literally wrote things as they came to my mind in terms of what God has been doing in my heart and revealing to me over the past week! And I must say, turning my attention to the Work of the Lord really did brighten my day and change my mood. :) Here we go (this is how it is written out in my journal- the raw goods! ;)

[Psalm 119: 36-37]

"Incline my heart to your testimonies and not to selfish gain! Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways."

1. Your word gives me hope.

2. I delight in Your law.

3. Steadfast love.

4. Teach me Your statutes, that I may abide in Your word.

5. The world is temporary- it does NOT satisfy.

6. Turn my heart toward Holy things.

7. Protect my eyes that I may guard my heart.

8. Take captive my thoughts.

9. Your word is ALIVE!

10. The power of the Holy Spirit is real- and very powerful.

11. Prayer, prayer, prayer.

12. Include other believers in my spiritual journey.

13. Allow Christ to love through me.

14. No more white washed tomb.

15. Never stop repenting.

16. Forgiven and loved.

17. Pray through scripture- meditate on the word- hide it in my heart.

18. Do not love the world.

19. Conviction --> brokenness --> godly sorrow and repentance --> FREEDOM!

20. Christ conquered the grave- HALLELUJAH!

21. Bended knee.

22. Discuss, seek truth, strive to know more- never stop learning.

23. Faith in God, not circumstances.

24. What is my main pursuit?

25. Righteousness, peace, faith not marriage, education, career.

26. Be vulnerable, be real.

27. Sin has lost its power, death has lost its sting!

28. Provider and Sustainer.

29. Joy, not happiness (Christ, not circumstance).

30. I can face tomorrow!

So there ya have it. No organization or method, just thoughts and things God has put on my heart, either about who He is or who I need to be/what I need to change.

God is good.... all the time.